:)

In a better mood today :) I promise.
But, you know when your laying in bed and you just think about things, silly things, and play things over in your head til it doesn't make sense... Yeah, sleep isn't easy when that's happening lol.

Confusing day ahead! Got too many plans that collide in one day.
Waking up on xmas day with my little bro and sis will be rad tho.
Grace is at the age where she doesn't know wether to stay loyal to santa or listen to the other (dickhead) kids... I don't want her to stop believing cos that will mean she's growing up, and she's far too cute for that! So yeah, gonna drop into convo with her so many times tomorrow how ace father christmas is.

P.s I thought my eye was on fire earlier today and now my eyes sting :( owie!

Night xx

Don't really know what i'm trying to achieve

Oh, hello low mood

wondered when you would be back 


:(

WANT

Elaborating on my earlier post

"You stupid boy!"


Well.. 


All he says is 'i love you' and 'i miss you' and 'your the only girl i talk to like this' when it's clearly all rubbish as its blates i'm not and when i talk to him about it being a load of rubbish he gets emotional and says he does mean it and says he wants to sort it out and for me to not be angry... but then blocks me on facebook? mature babe, real mature. 


I'm not bitter, it's just funny.

Flu, You're Poo!

Woke up this morning feeling like utter shit.
Seriously, if i get flu again i will personally punch every pig, big and small, from here to France! 
And on top of that, my control freak sister came home and shouted at me for not emptying the dishwasher.. fuck off.. i can't even breathe ! and this was after i just wrapper her rad Christmas present ! bitch.


Currently watching Pinocchio.. but the version with real people... but Pinocchio is CGI-d.
can't work out if it's magical or just really creepy. 

You STUPID boy!

Tehe

Completely changed my third brief idea...

gonna shoot in this antique shop i've found.

it's pretty much a grotto in there, if you like that sort of thing. & luckily for me, i love that sort of thing.

pretty boring description at the moment... but hopefully the photos will be rad.

also, really can't get a medium format cam on ebay!! I have a Diana, but wan't something a bit better really.

<3

Working in the prettiest little shop full of pretty things, pretty music in the country... And it's snowing outside. Love life.

job

So, got a job working for a family friend in horsham running their shop tomorrow.
Kinda nervous. Plus I feel vile atm so will probs just turn up in a massive baggy jumper, stupid hairstyle and a negative attitude. Yay.

Tehe

Can't wait to see Lizzie Laszlo this weekend though :) xx

hi

Hi, I'm fat. What's your name?

ow :(

I'm so stressed that I actually have chest pains.
So unstoked.

Just wanna be home and this essay magically done. Please? X

Third Brief Planning

New brief starts tomorrow...

"Aftermath"

After chatting with Milo about it many a time i feel i should push myself out of my comfort zone ... seeing as im using colour medium format (which i've never used) i might aswell be a maverick an go mad.

Going to do a shoot down the fishing port. The theme is going to be a girl dressed nicely from a night out, but intoxicated by alcohol and lost hope, messed up makeup, larring on the nets etc, using a flood light to focus on her.

....aftermath of a night out.

"If you can hear me, I'm crying out for help"

Hello, I'm a giant rab

GIMMIE !!!!

Ungrateful bitch...

Ellie Goulding

Went to see Ellie Goulding Perform at Cargo in London with the girls this evening...

ok, words can't even describe.

But i'll give it a go.

Basically, her voice is unbelieve! Such a soft gentle tone but so powerful. Lyrics are rad. She's cute. Even played guitar and a drum at one point...

Definately one to watch over the next year.

monday

Today went alright.
Was pretty much dreading it as I hadn't had a chance to edit my shots and well, my RDB work is far from done.
Pretty much all constructive and positive feedback though, which is nice from time to time.
(Might have something to do with the fact I shouted that I wanted to kill myself when photoshop 'wasn't working')

Had a pretty lovely day outside of uni too :)
Got free dinner, had an adventure and beach trip with Emma, Yasmin and Dolls which has definately lifted my spirits.
Oh and the news that I'm going to watch Jedward perform at a gaybar in brighton friday with Lizzie lol. Normal.

So yeah, not bad at all. Even if I did just have to read some dull text for tomorrows ridiculous seminar.
Oh, and I have to tell me landlord that I made a hole in the wall by mistake the other night as I was too lazy to carry a stoll down the stairs so threw it instead :S
Joy.
Was gonna say I fell and knocked into the wall but then realised he will probs not believe that as I have no bruise and the dent is pretty substantial lol.

Oh well! I'll sort it.

In the words of Tanny Chiu:

Over and out x

uni

There's a reason people abreviate it.
Uni - One.

Gonna sound like a complete baby but, too much work! Get so stressed and then lonely.
Talk about a shitty cycle.

Probably doesn't help that I went to a hippy college last year.
Or the fact I have a sickeningly short concentration span.
Or the fact my depressions been ridiculous lately.

Why did they name it 'university' ? Why not 'duoversity' ? Then maybe people would feel less alone..

All in all. A big moan lol. Apologies.

On a positive note...
Back to brighton this weekend for mum's bday.
And staying with Lizz on the 1st and going to see Ellie Goulding :)

Maybe my dad will even try come see me next week, eh!...

Fuck.
Ciao x

Second Brief : Digital

So, we were given the theme

'Interaction'

for our second project so i chose to interact with the locals of the wreck hole they call 'Portsmouth' and ask them first if i could take a photo of them and then secondly

'What is your aim of today?'

My final piece will have these images and a caption with their responses with the image.

Project One: Transitions

'This ones for you Milo'

Got my first uni brief 'Transitions' and had to shoot with b and w film... something i was never too confident with, mainly cos i've been taught the process really badly, in shit dark rooms, by shit tutors at every college i have been to in the past. BUT, went into it open minded and came out with these images...

I based my work on the transition of day to night and the magical almost eery feel the subdued moonlight gives along with street lamps and car lights.

I shot my first film and got one shot i was happy with ...

so had to go out and shoot a 36 exposure film at twilight in the rain whilst trying to balance an umbrella on my shoulder and judge exposure whilst trying to keep very still for the longer exposures.

spent like 2 and a half hours in the dark room basically vomiting photos in a mad last minute dash to get some prints before the deadline. anyway....

Home/Home

Felt so homesick i came home to Brighton this weekend.

I'm here. And now i want to go back to Uni... feel like i'm missing out loads.

Why can't you be in two places at once???

Oh, also, used my credit card (which the bank really shouldn't have given me) for the first time today... not cool.

Don't you hate it when...

...you speak too soon?

Today has been okay...

Been living here, with company now, for almost a week. So far, so good.

Feeling pretty chuffed that i'm still alive.

Was majorly homesick a few days ago though, guess it's normal.

Pretty happy at the mo, things are nice :)

Brought a bike today and went on a bike ride with Emma around Portsmouth, lifes good.

Quitting smoking, been 3 days.

As i'm writing this Emiliana Torrini - Today Has Been OK just came on...

currently bored out my skull

Moved into the new place...

Absolutely brain dead, 15quid in my purse, tired, lonely.
Solution?

A) amuse myself by listening to the japanese students next door.

B) amuse myself by staring aimlesly out my window at chavs/inbreds.

C) eat pasta and get a very early night.

D) get tipsy on my own on two cans of pear bulmers and watch a film.

As they say, you always have a choice... What a selection!

Feel free to visit. We could have fun.

Xoxo

Cheesy

I know how cheesy it sounds, everyone like 'new term, fresh start'

but.

genuinly.

I just hopped on that band wagon... and am taking it one step further... legal name change! why not. We are the impulse generation anyway, right?

Yours faithfully,
Poppy Elena Hart

Work

... noticed i havn't put much of mine up lately... will do as soon as i get back into it at the start of term. Times are hectic.

Love Jamie T, He just gets better.

eeeeeeeeeeeee :)

GOT INTO PORTSMOUTH UNI TODAY TO DO PHOTOGRAPHY !!!

Not long...

Just tried to order one ... but due to my recent change of address it's proving difficult... gotta ring up tomorrow... pretty selfish that the 3 call centre people have gone home to be honest...?

Haha I love Tai for this !!

CUTEST THING EVER?!?

I was laughing histerically for most of it though... sad?

Volatile

You said you'd never hurt me

but what is this

take my heart

give it it's final twist

I'm looking at you

racking my brain what to say

but i don't think there's anything now

that can possibly pull me through

Just stop. Stop riding the tracks of my tears

exploiting my nature, my love for you, my fears

I remember the day we met

impossible to forget

but now i'm trying to survive

trying not to regret

My rooms a mess and now my head

trying to focus on other things instead

laying here on my bed thinking of you

only one side in use, it used to be two.

Worst day possibly ever so far??

I literally want to curl up in a ball !!

Why are people so fucking harsh :(

First a random lady told me i'm a "fucking idiot!" ... oh, cheers lady.

Then my shoe falls off when i'm driving along near the pier. Always Ace! Luckily Simon helped me.

Then I walk around Kemp town for approx half an hour trying to find somewhere.

I then can't find my lighter so i have to ask some scary lesbian to use hers, who then decided to start up some massive conversation with me about smoking and bus fumes (?) ... I then find my lighter two mins after when walking down the street wondering what the hell she was talking about.

I then get another random shouting abuse at me.

So yer, pretty awsome day really!! Fucksake.

Old School Hip Hop

Addiction at the moment to A tribe Called Quest and a couple others.

If anyone knows any good stuff, not the aggresive shit, let me know.

Bob Marley.

Don't think i know anyone that doesn't like this music.

Seems to be all i'm listening to at the moment.

He was actually quite attractive... didn't realise.

Savagely tired

Pretty much feel like i could fall asleep any minute now, so wierd how thoughts get really deep when your in this mind state.

Bumped into a friend last night, who is probably reading this now, and i now promise to stop the horoscopes. I'll be honest, was starting to annoy me having to go on the Elle website everyday... clearly. Thanks Adam haha, oh, and get some work up man!!

Here goes...

It’s nearly impossible to remain objective on Friday when friends try to lure you into their sob stories. There’s a bit of a “poor me” complex going on and it’s time you speak up about it. Be compassionate but firm. Try to steer people towards their own responsibility in the matter; that’s the way to truly empower them. Saturday’s Virgo moon opens up new avenues for romance. An unconventional social event could turn into your personal “singles mingle” mixer–who knew? Roll with it, Pisces. There’s no controlling when and where the universe will deliver true love. On Sunday, you’re longing for deeper connections with people. This has to start with you. Pave the way for intimacy by revealing more personal information to someone you’ve kept at arm’s length. The awkward phase passes quickly and you could end the weekend feeling “as thick as thieves.”

Installation Art

Love this man's work.

Mark Jenkins.

He does a couple of different things, one is placing see-through plastic babies around the city, such a wierd result.

Another is creating lifelike models and placing them in interesting locations.

One Of The Most Beautifully Photographic Places I Have Been To.

Venice. Can't say much more than: if you are into beautiful lighting in photos... go here at least once in your life.

We got flooded in but was perfect while it lasted. The hotel room was stunning in itself.

A rather memorable college trip to Paris

Spent some time (too much time) in the Paris Catacombs.
Possibly one of the wierdest places i have stepped foot in.
Wall to wall skulls and human bones, lit by small dingy yellow tungsten bulbs.
Got some interesting lighting and photos, but also nearly got beaten up by a girl who wasn't overly impressed by my childish sense of humour when i tried to scare her.... sorry.
Also, probably shouldn't have eaten a baguette with skull dust still on my hands.

- I will upload more at a later date when I have access to my own laptop.

This is a piece i did for my Art Diploma, entitled 'Identity'

To say i owe this girl majorly would be an understatement.
Two hours in the cold, dark woods, laying in god knows what, with ants crawling up her dress, fake blood everywhere and even throwing herself down a muddy bank into a stream all for these images... Tanith, your a icon.

Thought it was time i added some personal work...

One of my images i never know if i'm happy with ... I think one think that all photographers (that sounds so egotistical) have in common is a massive sense of self criticism, which i guess is a good thing?

Daily Horoscope time

It’s not about complaining, but you are suddenly filled with more than your fair share of disgruntled feelings and need a place to vent. You can’t bottle up too many feelings over many days without it starting to take a toll on your physical wellbeing. Confide in a trusted friend.

Best Video.... la la planes

Moved house about 2 and a half weeks ago...

It's pretty much in the middle of nowhere... Tragic. Slightly killing me as i'm deffinately a city girl.
Although, quite enjoying the space and time to think about stuff.

Swine Flu just got fresh.

A bit worried... been spending time with Miss Laszlo and now feel grim...
A warning to you Lizz, if i DO have swine flu, I will ring you every day to moan about it.

Crackden

Basically, life is back to normal, Lizz and I have our crackden back and are fully making the most of it.

Disgusting? Yes, probably.

Daily horoscopes? Might try and live by these for a month and see what happens.

Stop telling yourself you’re not a “real” artist, Pisces, and avoid any other silly self-denial nonsense. Today’s eclipse is insisting that you start to recognize your own creative gifts without apology, without exception, without excuse. And yes, this means you need to do something with your gifts in a real way.