:)

In a better mood today :) I promise.
But, you know when your laying in bed and you just think about things, silly things, and play things over in your head til it doesn't make sense... Yeah, sleep isn't easy when that's happening lol.

Confusing day ahead! Got too many plans that collide in one day.
Waking up on xmas day with my little bro and sis will be rad tho.
Grace is at the age where she doesn't know wether to stay loyal to santa or listen to the other (dickhead) kids... I don't want her to stop believing cos that will mean she's growing up, and she's far too cute for that! So yeah, gonna drop into convo with her so many times tomorrow how ace father christmas is.

P.s I thought my eye was on fire earlier today and now my eyes sting :( owie!

Night xx

Don't really know what i'm trying to achieve

Oh, hello low mood

wondered when you would be back 


:(

WANT

Elaborating on my earlier post

"You stupid boy!"


Well.. 


All he says is 'i love you' and 'i miss you' and 'your the only girl i talk to like this' when it's clearly all rubbish as its blates i'm not and when i talk to him about it being a load of rubbish he gets emotional and says he does mean it and says he wants to sort it out and for me to not be angry... but then blocks me on facebook? mature babe, real mature. 


I'm not bitter, it's just funny.

Flu, You're Poo!

Woke up this morning feeling like utter shit.
Seriously, if i get flu again i will personally punch every pig, big and small, from here to France! 
And on top of that, my control freak sister came home and shouted at me for not emptying the dishwasher.. fuck off.. i can't even breathe ! and this was after i just wrapper her rad Christmas present ! bitch.


Currently watching Pinocchio.. but the version with real people... but Pinocchio is CGI-d.
can't work out if it's magical or just really creepy. 

You STUPID boy!

Tehe

Completely changed my third brief idea...

gonna shoot in this antique shop i've found.

it's pretty much a grotto in there, if you like that sort of thing. & luckily for me, i love that sort of thing.

pretty boring description at the moment... but hopefully the photos will be rad.

also, really can't get a medium format cam on ebay!! I have a Diana, but wan't something a bit better really.

<3

Working in the prettiest little shop full of pretty things, pretty music in the country... And it's snowing outside. Love life.

job

So, got a job working for a family friend in horsham running their shop tomorrow.
Kinda nervous. Plus I feel vile atm so will probs just turn up in a massive baggy jumper, stupid hairstyle and a negative attitude. Yay.

Tehe

Can't wait to see Lizzie Laszlo this weekend though :) xx

hi

Hi, I'm fat. What's your name?

ow :(

I'm so stressed that I actually have chest pains.
So unstoked.

Just wanna be home and this essay magically done. Please? X

Third Brief Planning

New brief starts tomorrow...

"Aftermath"

After chatting with Milo about it many a time i feel i should push myself out of my comfort zone ... seeing as im using colour medium format (which i've never used) i might aswell be a maverick an go mad.

Going to do a shoot down the fishing port. The theme is going to be a girl dressed nicely from a night out, but intoxicated by alcohol and lost hope, messed up makeup, larring on the nets etc, using a flood light to focus on her.

....aftermath of a night out.

"If you can hear me, I'm crying out for help"

Hello, I'm a giant rab

GIMMIE !!!!

Ungrateful bitch...

Ellie Goulding

Went to see Ellie Goulding Perform at Cargo in London with the girls this evening...

ok, words can't even describe.

But i'll give it a go.

Basically, her voice is unbelieve! Such a soft gentle tone but so powerful. Lyrics are rad. She's cute. Even played guitar and a drum at one point...

Definately one to watch over the next year.

monday

Today went alright.
Was pretty much dreading it as I hadn't had a chance to edit my shots and well, my RDB work is far from done.
Pretty much all constructive and positive feedback though, which is nice from time to time.
(Might have something to do with the fact I shouted that I wanted to kill myself when photoshop 'wasn't working')

Had a pretty lovely day outside of uni too :)
Got free dinner, had an adventure and beach trip with Emma, Yasmin and Dolls which has definately lifted my spirits.
Oh and the news that I'm going to watch Jedward perform at a gaybar in brighton friday with Lizzie lol. Normal.

So yeah, not bad at all. Even if I did just have to read some dull text for tomorrows ridiculous seminar.
Oh, and I have to tell me landlord that I made a hole in the wall by mistake the other night as I was too lazy to carry a stoll down the stairs so threw it instead :S
Joy.
Was gonna say I fell and knocked into the wall but then realised he will probs not believe that as I have no bruise and the dent is pretty substantial lol.

Oh well! I'll sort it.

In the words of Tanny Chiu:

Over and out x

uni

There's a reason people abreviate it.
Uni - One.

Gonna sound like a complete baby but, too much work! Get so stressed and then lonely.
Talk about a shitty cycle.

Probably doesn't help that I went to a hippy college last year.
Or the fact I have a sickeningly short concentration span.
Or the fact my depressions been ridiculous lately.

Why did they name it 'university' ? Why not 'duoversity' ? Then maybe people would feel less alone..

All in all. A big moan lol. Apologies.

On a positive note...
Back to brighton this weekend for mum's bday.
And staying with Lizz on the 1st and going to see Ellie Goulding :)

Maybe my dad will even try come see me next week, eh!...

Fuck.
Ciao x

Second Brief : Digital

So, we were given the theme

'Interaction'

for our second project so i chose to interact with the locals of the wreck hole they call 'Portsmouth' and ask them first if i could take a photo of them and then secondly

'What is your aim of today?'

My final piece will have these images and a caption with their responses with the image.

Project One: Transitions

'This ones for you Milo'

Got my first uni brief 'Transitions' and had to shoot with b and w film... something i was never too confident with, mainly cos i've been taught the process really badly, in shit dark rooms, by shit tutors at every college i have been to in the past. BUT, went into it open minded and came out with these images...

I based my work on the transition of day to night and the magical almost eery feel the subdued moonlight gives along with street lamps and car lights.

I shot my first film and got one shot i was happy with ...

so had to go out and shoot a 36 exposure film at twilight in the rain whilst trying to balance an umbrella on my shoulder and judge exposure whilst trying to keep very still for the longer exposures.

spent like 2 and a half hours in the dark room basically vomiting photos in a mad last minute dash to get some prints before the deadline. anyway....

Home/Home

Felt so homesick i came home to Brighton this weekend.

I'm here. And now i want to go back to Uni... feel like i'm missing out loads.

Why can't you be in two places at once???

Oh, also, used my credit card (which the bank really shouldn't have given me) for the first time today... not cool.